Empty Space

Long time without any posting…there has been a series of events in my life that prevent me from doing any blogging lately. I am doing it again because I think it's better to keep with my activities as they were before. I would like to forget it, but that would be unfair, not for me. Forgetting would be wrong. Emptiness is the only thing left. It's hard, painful and sour. Life will never be the same.

The pain does not come from the lost. It's no the first time I have had to deal with this kind of pain. However, losing someone close to me happened when I was too young to understand. Time helped me digest and grasp that event. Then, I discovered that when you lose someone the really painful part is not the lost, but the empty space that is left behind. People die, many die daily, and you say it easily. He or she is dead. They passed away; however what’s behind those words is what we have trouble dealing with. After the separation from a loved one, there is a hollow space in our minds and in our hearts now. How we deal with that is different for each individual. But the pain…the empty space is going to be there forever and ever, nothing is going to change it. We learn to live with it. We deal with it.

Forgetting would be easier, but also wrongful. I want to remember them, I have to…and certainly now that the pain is less acute I want to remember those who are no longer here, they went ahead. They are now waiting for me, for us.

Leobas “Junior” Alba
Rest in Peace